Tuesday, December 15, 2009

A letter to Sean...

I don't know if you would still remember, but everytime I'd go home from Singapore, you'd always tell me not to go back there. You'd only say this once on my every trip home and would never mention it again for the rest of my stay.
Remember when we watched a movie and I thought that you wanted to sit with your Mom so I didn't force you to sit with me.I felt so overwhelmed when Ate Lan told me that you wanted to sit beside me so we asked JV to change seats with you. You're so sweet and I hope you'd grow old that way.

I hope you don't break any girl's hearts because I know, with your looks, you'll be capable of doing that.
You and your sister never asked for anything and appreciate every small or big things we give you. Never selfish and always share stuff with others, well with the exception of Kurt... Hehehe... He easily annoys you, probably because he's a bit hard headed.

And speaking of Kurt, I remember the story where you kicked him because he was hurting Pauline unintentionally. Kurt was still very young and didn't know what he's doing, he thought it was still a game. Kicking him was not right but I am glad that your initial response was to save your sister. Although as you grow up, try to avoid violence, it wouldn't do you good. Always take good care of your sister and parents.Protect them as much as you can.
I am writing this 'cause I want a written account of how you were as a child. I don't want to forget. I don't want the people around you to forget. Most of all, I don't want you to forget. I want you to remember that you're capable of being sweet, selfless, strong and loving. This is you, will always be you.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Back Home

The familiar morning scent of my room
Pillows, sheets and blankets all groomed
Greeted with smiles and hugs
From those that I've missed so much

Stories over coffee, wine and beer
Laughing until we all end up in tears
Reminiscing friends and old lovers
And of our self made tall towers

Surrounded with happy faces
Kids and adults of all ages
Four generations of love and laughter
I'm glad to be part of this ever after

04Dec2009


The Dream

I had a happy dream last night
A dream I thought I forgot
Had pushed at the back of my head
But it doesn't seem so
If I can
I would not want to remember
The dream
The reality
The you

10Dec2009 5:03pm


Wednesday, December 9, 2009

I want to run...


... away
... to you
... home

... but I always end up running in circles


Tuesday, November 24, 2009

My Midnight Hymn

As the night wind rattles my windows
With the starless evening sky
I wrap myself with a blanket
And close my tired tired eyes
I pray that sleep comes soon
For I no longer want to think
Hoping for empty thoughts
For my worries to let me be
I wish for a dreamless slumber
To venture into nothingness
For when I open my eyes
I'll see how I made such a mess
So sleep please visit me now
I don't want to wait long
This is my evening prayer
This is my midnight song

23Nov2009 11:30pm


Sunday, November 15, 2009

Take 2

This is the 2nd time this has happened...

Nakakainis na ang taong gusto mo, ina-assume na sa iba ka may gusto. Sana idilat niya ang maliliit niyang mga mata.

Kung pwede lang talaga...


House Red

I never preferred red wine. I didn't like how it taste and how it smelled. But a week ago, at a celebration, I was given a choice between red wine and Tiger Beer. If I didn't like red wine, I didn't like Tiger Beer more. I could actually order a different drink but I would be like the odd man out. So, I chose the wine.

I guess we will always find ourselves in a situation where you have to make a choice between the things you never really liked. And the best approach to take is to choose the lesser evil (like in the upcoming Presidential elections). And our decisions and choices might surprise us. It might lead us to things we never really thought we would be able to appreciate. We might actually enjoy it.


At the end the evening it was never really about how I managed to drink 3 glasses of something I never liked. But how I enjoyed every moment of it because of the people I'm celebrating with. Because of the memories we are weaving. Because of the wonderful evening we are having. Because of the stars that are shining on our happy faces...


Happy Endings

I am not a fan of such. You can call me bitter, pessimistic, a Scrooge and anything you can think of. I just think they're like fairy tales for the old. It makes people believe in the unbelievable and set high expectations on life. And life and everything that revolves around it usually ends up in disappointment, pain and regret. It's always a cycle. A rainbow after the rain. The calm before the storm.

I guess the reason why I dislike it is because I haven't had my happy ending yet. And even if it arrives, will I still be able to enjoy it? After all, as the phrase says, it is the End.