Valentine's...

Somebody kill me please...

"Fear reaches only to the point where the unavoidable begins; from there on, it loses its meaning. And all we have left is the hope that we are making the right decision."

- The Fifth Mountain by Paulo Coelho

I wish things were different and easy.

Not as complicated as it is, it was.

It seems as if years doesn't matter to me.

They're like days, moments, time.

What I wouldn't give to just forget and be left alone.

What I wouldn't give just for you to see me as I see you.

'Cause everytime I remember you,

The memory reminds me that I didn't really forget, not a bit...

Shard by shard she arranges the world.
It looks the same, she says, but it is not.
It looks as they expect but it is not.

- Wicked by Gregory Maguire

Lola's 87th year

Today is my Lola's 87th birthday!!! Yey! Too bad I wasn't in Manila long enough to celebrate with them. I never grew up with my Lola, I remember her leaving for US when I was about 4 or 5 and staying there until last year when her children finally decided it's best for her to move to Manila and live with my parents. I spent a great deal of time with her while I was on vacation last week. Like old people, she's beginning to be forgetful and most of the time we would be having the same conversation over and over again or she would be asking the same questions a couple of times. Some people find it annoying but I don't. I like talking to her. In a way she makes me appreciate family and life more.

 

She's still capable of doing things on her own and would wave us away if we are about to help her. I remember her laughing at jokes and kissing her great grandchildren. The first time I saw her cry was when she saw me last year, I thought she would've forgotten about me given the multitude of grandchildren she has, but she didn't. She even noticed my gaining weight and remarked it's good for me. When we asked why she cried, she said she's just happy, and I am so happy to see her as well.

 

She has been through a lot of joys and of course, hardships and I only hope that our prayers and love will shield her from the pains this world continues to bring. We're thankful that she was given another year with us and I wish her good health and happiness. I miss you Lola.