My Sinner and Saint

In this world of clear cut lines

Just between black and white

Adored a god of good

And enjoyed absurd pleasures

Loved for unadulterated happiness

Have 'caused others pain

Told children fairy tale endings

Believed in tragedies

Looked but dared to touch

Crushed the heart held in hand

31Oct2009 12:43am

A Sad Question

How are you?

I'm good , fine, great or ok is the usual response. Well, those are the expected response. But what if that is not what you feel? What if you're feeling the exact opposite? Do you lie or do you tell them the truth? Do they even really mean it when they ask you that question or are they just being polite?

'Cause there are times when you just want to blurt out that you're not fine, in fact, you're feeling so awful that you want to disappear. And you don't want to lie anymore. You want to put down the stupid mask and end the happy facade that's beginning to tire you out. But you can't and you won't.

So next time I get asked this question, I might as well tell them the truth and respond with a smile "I feel like jumping in a pool".

By the way, I don't know how to swim...

We're Good

The day is coming to a close
This side of the world is getting dark
You put a dot on your last words
A silly smile drawn in my heart
The waiting game is over
Long before we realized
Our lives have moved on
Without having to decide
We're as good as it gets
Learned too long how to let go
It may have been with regrets
But we'll go on with the flow

15Oct2009 07:25PM

Wishing for a starry sky tonight

It's a Friday. The day started with heavy rains. But I think the sun is starting to come out. I still hear thunders though. A few more hours. And then we can drown our sorrows and laugh away our pains. Even for just a moment, our smiles will be sincere.

Thank You God for friends.

I hope I'd see a starry sky tonight...

Why?

A random thought.

Most of the time I wonder why, we, people do the things we do. The hurtful things. How some people could do inhumane acts to their own kind.

I guess we are all capable of good and bad. We can choose though, right? Why would some opt the latter.

I don't think I could ever understand. Maybe I would not want to.

It's just sad.

I don't like me happy

I never really liked me when I'm happy and hopeful. I feel like sooner or later something's gonna go wrong or things are going to break. That's me, a pessimistic, worrier lass. I know it's probably one of the reasons why I'm such a serious person and unable to enjoy the happy moments life and destiny has provided me. At times I wish that I could change me. But sometimes I feel that that specific characteristic keeps me from getting hurt. So now I have to choose between being too happy or possibly getting disappointed...

I hate me happy and giddy

Because of what I feel it says

I shouldn't feel ecstatic

For the things that was never said

I must not read between the lines

It may mean something else

But for now I'll stay lightheaded

At least until tonight

I'll crush my own hopes tomorrow

At the first sign of light

11Oct2009 1:08pm

Thin Wooden Walls

Woken by a silent cry

Lying on a shaky ground

But here I see just a smile

And nothing else all around

Ears pressed, muffled sounds

Hums and buzz going about

Touching with sleepy hands

Breathing slow near your heart

This evening will come to pass

We'll forget and leave behind

Sheets, pillows and tears

The night, deaf and blind

13Sep209 2:24am

Melt with Me

Tonight your stare

Be embedded in my eyes

As time stood still

I'll dream of you

Of the moment

I melt at your gaze

And as our arms

Brush each other

The closest I'll ever be

To having you

26Sep2009 2:49am

Not a good week for Asia

Storms, typhoons, earthquakes and tsunamis...

Not a very good week for Asia. Lives lost, infrastructures damaged and people traumatized. There's no use pointing fingers. It is nature. All we can now do is salvage what can be salvaged, help as much as we can and live learning the lessons it has taught us.

We must move on and take care of our planet, it is the only one we've got.