Love-hate relationships!!! It sometimes drains the energy out of me.
That's how I describe my relationship with my one and only sister. There are days when it doesn't seem like I love her, but I do, I really do.
Sometimes in the heat of an argument or if she's in a foul mood and would take it out on me, I would always ask myself 'What exactly have i done to make you despise and be annoyed by my mere presence?'. I desperately wanted her to like and appreciate me that I end up giving her whatever she wants and doing whatever pleases her... I spoiled my older sister and there are times that I end up paying the consequences...
There are happy moments too. And I always like the feeling i get when those moments happen. Like when she would cook for me because I had a bad week or simply because I wanted a home cooked meal. When I got sick she bought me congee and took care of me. Sometimes she'd just enter my room and sit in my bed while eating her dinner - I think she misses me (because we no longer share a room). She now holds my hand while walking outside (she used to hate it when I hold hers). One morning, while I was sleeping, she simply laid down beside me while surfing the net on her laptop. It's those things that make me want to hug her.
We're getting along most of the time and we are learning to compromise. We would give each other space once one of us is in the brink of throwing a fit. We're learning to be a sister to each other, we're not exactly the best of friends, but that's okay. Sister trumps friends anyway... :D
