My Midnight Hymn

As the night wind rattles my windows

With the starless evening sky

I wrap myself with a blanket

And close my tired tired eyes

I pray that sleep comes soon

For I no longer want to think

Hoping for empty thoughts

For my worries to let me be

I wish for a dreamless slumber

To venture into nothingness

For when I open my eyes

I'll see how I made such a mess

So sleep please visit me now

I don't want to wait long

This is my evening prayer

This is my midnight song

23Nov2009 11:30pm

Take 2

This is the 2nd time this has happened...

Nakakainis na ang taong gusto mo, ina-assume na sa iba ka may gusto. Sana idilat niya ang maliliit niyang mga mata.

Kung pwede lang talaga...

House Red

I never preferred red wine. I didn't like how it taste and how it smelled. But a week ago, at a celebration, I was given a choice between red wine and Tiger Beer. If I didn't like red wine, I didn't like Tiger Beer more. I could actually order a different drink but I would be like the odd man out. So, I chose the wine.

I guess we will always find ourselves in a situation where you have to make a choice between the things you never really liked. And the best approach to take is to choose the lesser evil (like in the upcoming Presidential elections). And our decisions and choices might surprise us. It might lead us to things we never really thought we would be able to appreciate. We might actually enjoy it.

At the end the evening it was never really about how I managed to drink 3 glasses of something I never liked. But how I enjoyed every moment of it because of the people I'm celebrating with. Because of the memories we are weaving. Because of the wonderful evening we are having. Because of the stars that are shining on our happy faces...

Happy Endings

I am not a fan of such. You can call me bitter, pessimistic, a Scrooge and anything you can think of. I just think they're like fairy tales for the old. It makes people believe in the unbelievable and set high expectations on life. And life and everything that revolves around it usually ends up in disappointment, pain and regret. It's always a cycle. A rainbow after the rain. The calm before the storm.

I guess the reason why I dislike it is because I haven't had my happy ending yet. And even if it arrives, will I still be able to enjoy it? After all, as the phrase says, it is the End.

My Sinner and Saint

In this world of clear cut lines

Just between black and white

Adored a god of good

And enjoyed absurd pleasures

Loved for unadulterated happiness

Have 'caused others pain

Told children fairy tale endings

Believed in tragedies

Looked but dared to touch

Crushed the heart held in hand

31Oct2009 12:43am

A Sad Question

How are you?

I'm good , fine, great or ok is the usual response. Well, those are the expected response. But what if that is not what you feel? What if you're feeling the exact opposite? Do you lie or do you tell them the truth? Do they even really mean it when they ask you that question or are they just being polite?

'Cause there are times when you just want to blurt out that you're not fine, in fact, you're feeling so awful that you want to disappear. And you don't want to lie anymore. You want to put down the stupid mask and end the happy facade that's beginning to tire you out. But you can't and you won't.

So next time I get asked this question, I might as well tell them the truth and respond with a smile "I feel like jumping in a pool".

By the way, I don't know how to swim...

We're Good

The day is coming to a close
This side of the world is getting dark
You put a dot on your last words
A silly smile drawn in my heart
The waiting game is over
Long before we realized
Our lives have moved on
Without having to decide
We're as good as it gets
Learned too long how to let go
It may have been with regrets
But we'll go on with the flow

15Oct2009 07:25PM

Wishing for a starry sky tonight

It's a Friday. The day started with heavy rains. But I think the sun is starting to come out. I still hear thunders though. A few more hours. And then we can drown our sorrows and laugh away our pains. Even for just a moment, our smiles will be sincere.

Thank You God for friends.

I hope I'd see a starry sky tonight...